Gone

Yeah, yeah yeah I know I'm like a broken record but I am actually broken. When you lose a partner you also lose a future. Me and Scott had a future planned together and now it's gone. I opened an email I'd sent to Siobhan this time last year detailing my plan to go meet him in Canada round about February this year. Wow it hurt to see it, a life we'd planned together gone. 

Even when I left all I wanted was him. All I told family and friends about it was that we weren't over and all I wanted was him. I'm sure they just nodded their heads or tried to make me see differently but only I knew how much I loved him. I don't regret going away but I'll always have that regret of not being there and could I of made a difference?